i'm at a cross road in my life

[orvida]

I deeply appreciate the advice i was given.
1) I have a pins on my 3 older children 16,15,14 which stands for person inneed of supervision which is to cover my ass in cases such as these.
Right now i'm so stressed out i don't know if i'm coming or going,a little while ago i was on my way back from the laundry mat and this lady comes around the corner asking if we knew who child this was imagine my surprise when it turned out to be my 2 yo with just his t shirt and pull up on no shoes i was f#@#### out of my mind because i left him upstairs in the house with my husband and the other 4 children i was breaking my god he could have been killed by a car bus or god nows what any way it all turned out for the better i got my baby and he is well but now i feel as if i can't trust no one in my household to even keep a watch on the baby for the love of god now do you'll understand why i'm freaking out.

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[orvida.livejournal.com]

yeah i have intervetion services i have a homemaker who is supposedly their to help me out with the 4 smaller ones i come in to the house she's sitting down watching videos with the 3 other children and i'm looking at her like wtf are you being paid for if you don't notice the smallest one is not in the house. so i called the agency and made a report about what had happened while i was at the laundry mat. i love my children but if i had to do it again i would not have as many and definitely not as early 22. but thank you for your concern and support i really do appreciate all the input i've been given from everyone out here. As for family none live near me
1) lives in seattle
2) lives in georgia
3) lives in the catskills
4) lives out here in bronx but works 12 days straight